Well this is interesting- While I was in New York over Christmas vacation at Renee's- I took a pregnancy test, and there were 2 lines. This confused me because on the directions it clearly stated that 2 lines meant one was pregnant. One was stumped. Not that it could've been impossible because I am a healthy and functional 24 year old, dispite the diabetes. Bottom Line- Pregnant. So this is a good thing... Since the 1st of January I have quit smoking, and have upped my usual dose of mood swings 75% blaming it solely on the pregnancy. Quitting smoking was unbearable. GUT WRENCHING to say the least. I was not ready to quit. I do know it is a wonderful thing and that there are so many benefits to quitting and none from smoking.bla bla bla. and that it is just plain stupid, but I sincerely enjoyed my cigarettes- I felt so melancholy and artistic when I smoked, and it gave me something to do besides bite my nails. They were an emotional crutch, and a hobby, a friend and a 6 minute thrill of entertainment to my hands and mouth. I bid them farewell. I will never go back. Tonight after dinner there was some people smoking outside the restaurant and it actually smelled bad. I wasn't sure if I was being a traitor or just realizing that smoking was not my friend... those cigarettes hadn't missed me, and I wasn't letting anyone down except maybe the guy who designs coffins. We move Tuesday for good... the house is fabulous and Terry (my sister) gave me a bunch of furniture and a full nursery for our new life. I am grateful. I am grateful to be healthy (as much as I can be)... I pray my baby is safe and healthy and happy. I am grateful that I have a wonderful man to be by my side FOREVER. I hope tomorrow is brighter and that I can pull my emotions together and be more peaceful, for Nicks sake. I am so grateful for the great life I have. Also I got a Saab. I returned the beast from hell that ran through a full tank in 4 days (isuzu ascender, dont get it) and got a saab who's fuel gage has not moved from full since I bought it. (Did I just refer to the car as a "who"??)
Nick and I have to go pick Zoe up at a bar- I don't wanna be home alone.
Asheville Bed and Breakfast!
Reads
- How To Talk to a Widower- Jonathan Tropper
- I know this much is true - Wally Lamb
- Something Borrowed- Emily Griffin
- My Horizontal Life- Chelsea Handler (histerical)
- Someone to Catch My Drift- Jacqueline Powell
- A Million Little Pieces- James Frey (partially fabricated, who cares)
- Smashed- Koren Zailckas
NICK AND THE SECRET PRINCESS
PTree City
Blending in
About Me
- MonicaBomb
- Atlanta, Georgia, United States
- In a nutshell- I am obsessed with make-up shoes, and handbags. You know the important things in life. I love different techniques for altering your appearance using make-up and I know ALL the best products to use to do this. I overeat popcorn to the point of puking, I cannot stand large crowds of Fraternity or Sorority type people, (and yes you can be this type without being in one) I am borderline bipolar. I show affection through being mean on accident. I am a diabetic. I like to drink alchohol (yes this is a problem)... I use smoking as a form of physical activity. I want to be respected for my mind, not how I look. I want 3 babies then a tummy tuck and breast implants, sorry its true. Breakfast is the most wonderful thing in the universe- along with excessive amounts of coffee. Lastly, I should treat my guy a lot better than I do. I am the proud mother to a little girl named Sydney who is 8 months old and wild as a boar. I have son Ethan who is 8 years old who lives in New York and is smart as a whip.
2 comments:
I'm so proud of you for quitting smoking...me and Curt did it for New Years resolution...it hasn't been easy but I've started runnning again and feel good...how are you feeling otherwise?? I love you!!
"...a friend and a 6 minute thrill of entertainment to my hands and mouth." perfectly said!
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